Life and Death

Today, i had lots of time to do some thinking. Just lying back and relaxing =] thinking of how i would like my life to end up. I would like to be happy. I imagined me, in about 10 years time both in a good and bad scenario. The good scenario went a bit like;

I was happily in a teaching job, in good health and married with a child of my own. i imagined that i was still in Guiding, but i had taken over my own unit, and i planned lots of survival adventures away from home.

The Bad scenario; I still work in woolworths, and still live with my parents. I am seeing someone, but he seemed to be dodgey. I was depressed, and there seemed no way of getting me out of it. The depression was making me seriously ill..

Which made me think about how i was going to die...and when. However i couldn't come up with answers for these insane questions. During the time i was thinking about these questions, a song came on which made me even more un-afraid of dying than i was before.

Where did we come from?

Why are we here?

Where do we go when we die?

What lies beyond

And what lay before?

Is anything certain in life?

They say " Life is too short"

"The here and the now"

And " You`re only given one shot"

But could there be more

Have I lived before

Or could this be all that we`ve got?

If I die tomorrow

I`d be alright

Because I believe

That after we`re gone

The spirit carries on

I used to be frightened of dying

I used to think death was the end

But that was before

I`m not scared anymore

I know that my soul will transcend

I may never find all the answers

I may never understand why

I may never prove

What I know to be true

But I know that I still have to try

If I die tomorrow

I`d be alright

Because I believe

That after we`re gone

The spirit carries on

"Move on, be brave

Don`t weep at my grave

Because I`m no longer here

But please never let

Your memories of me disappear"

Safe in the light that surrounds me

Free of the fear and the pain

My questioning mind

Has help me to find

The meaning in my life again

Victoria`s real

I finally feel

At peace with the girl in my dreams

And now that I`m here

It`s perfectly clear

I found out what all of this means

If I die tomorrowI`d be alright

Because I believe

That after we`re gone

The spirit carries on

Yeah that song please =] Dream theater - Spirit Carries on

Jessie x